It’s been so long since I wrote regularly I feel stiff and clumsy, I guess I need to stretch and warm up my writing muscles and get back into it. I’m not entirely sure why I have slowed down and come almost to a halt, though life has been a bit of a surprise one way and another lately, in many good ways as well as some sad.
The best of these is that God has broken in and taken my breath away at times, leaving me changed, surprised, and a little bit nervous, whatever will he do next, and where?
I don’t feel I want to write about what he has done in a detailed way, and as it has been so significant to me I find myself as though I have nothing to say, because usually I’m open about pretty much everything.
The sad happenings also make me feel I want to be quiet. Life is made of all of these, happy and sad, without them life would be smoother but emptier, these things often come through the others in our life, they are part of those peoples’ experience of their own life, these people are precious to me.
Thankfully the people involved know the one who holds them, they know him, his ways, and that they are safe in his care. They have hope. They trust him.
Life is a complicated mixture..but this is where we get to choose how we will live, how we will love.
One day all this will be over and done with, we will be forever home, and then we won’t have the choices open to us now.
As we see friends move away, others return, dear ones suffer dreadful diseases, we can know for sure the one who loves them best is overshadowing it all, limiting some things and extending others.
I know he looks on with kind eyes and I am thankful..but sometimes a little quiet.
Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, ‘The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.’
The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.